Don't be fooled by me
Don't be fooled by the face i wear.
For i wear a mask, a thousand masks, masks that i'm afraid to take off, and none of them is me.
Pretending is an art that's second nature to me, but don't be fooled.
For God's sake don't be fooled.
I give you the impression that i'm secure, that confidence is my name and coolness is my game, that the water's calm and i'm in command, and that i need no one.
But don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth but my surface is my mask, ever-varying and ever-concealing.
Beneath lies no complacence.
Beneath lies confusion and fear and aloneness.
But i hide this. I don't want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weakness and fear being exposed.
That's why i frantically create a mask to hide behind, a nonchalant sophisticated facade, to help me pretend, to shield me from the glance that knows.
But such a glance is precisely my salvation.
My only hope, and i know it.
♥ Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Making mistakes is something we all do, and i am still a fine and worthwhile person when i make them. There is no reason for me to get upset when i make a mistake. I am trying, and if i make them, i am going to continue trying. I can handle making a mistake. It is okay for others to make one, too. I will accept mistakes in myself and also mistakes that others make.
♥ Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Not everybody has to lnve me or even to like me. I don't necessarily like everybody i know, so why should everybody else like me? I enjoy being like and being loved, but if somebody doesn't like me, i will still be okay and still feel like i am an okay person. I cannot make somebody like me, duuh. Anyore than someone can get me to like them. I don't need approval all the time -.- if someone does not approve me, i will still be okay.
♥ Wednesday, July 08, 2009
There is more than one way to do something. More than one person has had good ideas that will work. There is no one and only "best" way. Everybody has ideas that are worthwhile. Some may make more sense to me than others, but everyone's ideas are worthwhile, and everyone has something worthwhile to contribute.
♥ Wednesday, July 08, 2009
I don't need someone else to take care of my problems. I am capable. I can take care of myself. I can make decisions for myself. I can think for myself. I don't have to depend on somebody else to take care of me :)
♥ Wednesday, July 08, 2009
I can. Even though i may be faced with difficult tasks, it is better to try than to avoid them. Avoiding a task does not give me any opportunities for success or joy, but trying does. Things worth having are worth the effort. I might not be able to do everything, but i can do something.
♥ Wednesday, July 08, 2009
I don't need to watch out for things to go wrong. Things usually go just fine, and when they don't, i can handle it. I don't have to waste my energy worrying. The sky won't fall in and things will be okay
♥ Wednesday, July 08, 2009
aww i just check up my blog, suweeet thaanks umie sayang for the bg apa, hehehe really appreciate it *winks.
Oh yeah oh yeah, haha apakan -.-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO POJEE, BAHLUL SAYA, haha jangan mare ;pp may god bles you!
and yeah atlast my wish came true, thank you god, kami kembali bercontact like for 3 years saya menungu nya. Weseh apaan. Hahaha bha antam. Entah eh apakan saya merepek ani? Haha
Aitee, nitees, sweetdream people, and yeah smilee always ;D love ya.
♥ Saturday, July 04, 2009